The Banksia Roses are in bloom again. The scent of budding flowers unfolding velvet petals perfume the air. The buzz of busy insects is drowned by intermittent growls of threatening thunderheads, and butterflies flit about in carefree wandering, disregarding the warning of the heavy grey skies above.
As I smile for the ceaseless clicking of the camera, I see a Cabbage White float by ~ it is captured fluttering around in a series of snaps. Then a Wattle bird swooshes past me with a quick flap of his wings.
I breathe in the scent of thunder as tiny splats of rain descend on the freshly mown lawn, bejewelling the blades of grass with droplets of water.
There are whispers of hazy summer days creeping nearer…
Today I celebrate the warmth of the sun and spring rains with floaty skirts and happy hair!
I feel much more like a pinup princess than a vintage lady with my neon pink stripe, but when I was at the salon last Friday, I felt the sudden urge to do something special with my hair for my upcoming birthday.
So pink it was!
I haven’t talked much about my birthdays on Lavender & Twill, but I must admit I’m feeling a bit philosophical about the whole affair…
Particularly as it’s my 30th birthday this Friday. Eeep!
I remember having an existential crisis for my 20th ~ it just seemed like such a big deal to me that I was turning 20 and was no longer a teenager. But looking back on it, I can’t even remember what I was so worried about?
Was it because I was supposed to be growing up but still had no idea what a “Grown Up” me was supposed to look like? Well, if so ~ that’s slightly ironic because I still don’t know who “Grown Up” me is supposed to be. However, I’m beginning to think that’s okay; that it’s simply the way life shifts and flows. Who you are tomorrow may be someone completely different ~ as time changes all things.
A lot has changed for me over the last ten years or so ~ much more than I ever dreamed of. A whole lot of stuff I thought I’d do, didn’t get done, and a whole lot of stuff I thought I wouldn’t do, did!
I didn’t end up moving overseas as I thought I would, and I certainly didn’t think I’d plan my wedding in ten days and ‘elope’ to the beach… I thought I’d have my first baby at 28, HA! I have three now!!
If anyone had told me that I’d be married for nearly six years and have three children by the time I was thirty, I would have been surprised… Happy, but still surprised!
As far as living the life I wanted, I am really blessed and thankful that I have the family that I’ve always dreamed of.
In terms of the goals I had for myself outside of family life ~ aside being a wife and a mother, well, it’s nice to know that I have crossed off some important ones, and I’m still chasing others.
I finally learned how to snowboard, and have been hitting the slopes for seven seasons now ~ goodness, that sounds like forever! I got to travel around Europe for six months with my closest friend, my sister, as we went on our grand adventure in 2008. My other sister and I finally published our book, Gamenian, and though that didn’t end up quite as I thought it might have, I’m so pleased that I can finally tick that off my Life Goals list!
I still am pursuing my dreams of dressage, travelling, writing, and finding a space for my art ~ and I’m excited to see where that will go over the next few years. In some ways I’ve come further than I ever thought I would ~ Lavender & Twill, Teacup Girl Art and Giggles Comic are proof of that, yet in others I feel I’ve barely scratched the surface and I have SOOOO much more to do.
I think one of the biggest changes for me though has been my foray in the world of vintage. I finally found the perfect expression for my quirky sense of style!
I have learned so much of history, clothing, culture, photography, art, writing, and even coding ~ all because of my obsession with vintage and blogging! I’ve learned how to knit and sew thanks to my love of vintage, and my confidence has grown as I’ve learned how to put my thoughts out there and reach out to others.
Because the best thing I’ve discovered about vintage ~ the very best thing besides all the pretty dresses ~ is all the friendships I’ve made over the years.
Some dear friends I have never met, and I very much hope that one day I will. Some dear friends I’ve only met once, others a few times more than that. But every time I get to share my thoughts with like minded people and revel in the welcoming warmth of our community, I am so grateful for the years I’ve had to create these connections.
So as I reach the eve of other decade, I think I can not be thirty ~ really, that’s too old! But then I realise that all the parts of me that have grown and changed, making me who I am today, that’s all from the effects of time. Experiences. Life.
And I wouldn’t want it to be any different.
I’m so grateful.
I’m so blessed.
Thank you all for being a part of my life!
xox,
bonita
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Royal Bluebells Felt Flower Corsage | Me Made, Jan 2015
Bubblegum Knit Top | Retrospect’d
Blue Blue Candy Stripe Skirt | Forever New
Snow White Peep Toe Heels | Light In The Box
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